I boarded the matatu with exact fare and a podcast in tow, Headphones on, the world tuned low , “Karibu, Mzae,” the conductor said. Who? Me? Mzae? As in, the old one ? A mirror wouldn’t lie , The retreating hairline, The silver squadron above my ears, the way I sigh when I bend to tie my shoes. But still , Mzae? I tiptoe through WhatsApp groups now, Where “big bro” lands like a velvet slap. “Daddy” at the kiosk, “Fathe” at the garage, “Mbuyu” from a youth selling airtime. Is there no refuge left from reverence? No corner where I’m just a man , Not an age bracket, not a lesson, not a past? I want to shout: “I’m a customer, not your patriarch!” “I’m a brother, not the council of elders!” Let me be anonymous in this line, a wallet, a joke, a quick goodbye. Did I do this too? Did I Mzee my way through others’ prime? Did I honour or harm with those sudden elevations? Now, I sit with my strong tea cup , watch steam rise like the thoughts from my scalp ,...
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